Your Memory
By: Usman k

Your memory makes me feel sad when they all brag,
And for that, i feel like gagged, standing on a crag,
I miss you more than everything i have ever possessed,
And then i don’t give a damn how cynics protest.

It fills my eyes with tears,
And bestows me with nothing but fears,
It urges me that i owe you something,
And that something is more important than everything.

It reminds of the moments that we have spent together,
And then i wished it could last forever.
Every couple reminds me of your memories,
And my mind gets filled with sad melodies.

It makes me realize that i have lost you,
I might have lost you but haven’t forgot you.
It makes me to accept that i am a looser,
I might be a looser but not a boozer.

Every smile reminds me of your amiability,
And its disappearance transforms me into a casualty.
I find myself pitying on my own self,
Then i hear a fella saying not to degrade yourself.

I don’t now that will we ever meet again,
Talk again, laugh again and love each other again.
The fainting chances reduce my breaths,
And that finally encloses me to my death.

Usman

please dont leave me stay here all night tell me
its okay hold me tight tell me you love me, tell me you’ll stay tell me you’ll be there that you wont walk away

give me your heart give me your soul give me your mind.. & if you do .ill never know
make our love a story make our love a book just make it a happy ending the best you’ve ever took

All I want is for you to be happy I dont care if I cry, i just want to prove to all of them your not just some guy, and all the people around me hate to see me this way because there worried when I fall I’ll slowly drift away

they know that you hurt me they know that you try,
deep inside of me i do believe your different from other guys I just want this to work
thats all ive ever tried My problem is I cant let go, I don’t know when to say goodbye

my problem is I care to much I dont know what to do, so everyday I sit here wishing there was something i could do

something that would make you care like you use to we use to be so close , you treated me like I was it, like I mattered the most

You said you’ve told me everything that there is to know but why are you trying to keep it from me hiding like a ghost, I can hear it in your voice its something you can’t hide

your a horrible liar , even you know it deep inside you can’t act like everyone else I don’t know why you even try, your far different from any of those guys

you want to be a gangsta you like the way it looks and all my insecurties are wrote down in this poem like its part of me a, book

you like weed, you like the way it makes you feel all u see in that is the feeling that right now makes me ill

I don’t want to see you get hurt I don’t want you to die, all I want is you that one guy…the one who never use to lie?

And here come the tears the ones that come each time I listen to your voice and realize that its all a lie , that your not it, you never will be the same guy

So maybe I should stop caring maybe its not worth the time ive spent with tears in my eyes…maybe this is all i needed to make me realize your just another one of those always will be guys.

Here it is:

Alone

I hear a noise,
I stop and cringe,
A shadow passes by.

I cry for help,
But no one hears,
And so I am alone.

Once I was not alone,
Once I was loved,
What did I do wrong?

I sat on their laps,
They stroked my fur,
I thought it would never end.

Then came the kittens,
Inside me they grow,
I just want to keep them safe.

But then came the box,
So dark and small,
The drive, the fall, all alone.

The shadow comes close,
It darkens, it falls,
I am just to weak to care.

Cold and tired,
Confused and alone,
I let the shadow take me.

Back at home,
Warm and safe,
My family sits around a tree.

Together they open gifts,
They laugh they sing,
They think not once of me.

Their lonely cat,
The one who loved them,
The one they abandoned
By the side of a road