I’m feeling really shitty and
I’m getting real depressed
The kids won’t listen to me
and my house is in a mess
I’m late for work again
The babies got a runny nose
Oh hell! I’ve got another run
in my f—ing pantyhose!
The toilets backed up
The dryer is broke
My car is a f—ing joke
I’m always up the creek
without a paddle or a boat
My old man is really getting
underneath my skin.
He’s acting like an A-hole
and he’s late from work again
I feel like I want to scream or
hold my breath until I choke
This day has been a nightmare
I need a rum and coke
I’m sick of cleaning, cooking, choosing,
God! it’s so confusing.
I just can’t ever seem to win
I’m too f—ing busy losing!
I’ve had it up to here
I can’t take it anymore
The world can kiss my ass!
I’m walking out the f—ing door!

At last her lips, of course

Once, in a cluttered one-room squeezed into a walk-up hallway full of chipping red doors, her hands around mine, showing me what to feel

The open second button of her sweater

That accidental brush of the hair on her arm, and my weak knees

The rough patches on her fingertips when I hand her what she dropped

What she calls me when her breath hitches

Hot moist breath on my face

At last her lips, of course

A bitter hole
Made of dark and gray
A swirling world wind engulfs me
But never making me whole;
Sour pain kills me
My heart aches
My eyes show of this;
For everyone to see;

Pain constricts my chest
Darkness drowns my eyes
Emotions flood my body
And none lay to rest
There’s darkness in the fear of sorrow
A clan of mutants;
Here for the terrible up bringing;
For my past will always follow

Traction skips
Doubts fill me
Questions fog my view
My mind flips
Your stair stings my eyes
I know you judge me
Will you be no more?
Or will you just walk by

My feelings show
On my skin;
Arms body
And soul;
I tremble
My skin gets clammy
Your eyes show me
Pure judgmental;

This is my action
My scars, self inflicted
And all my emotions;
But full intention;
A pit of resolutions;
I dig in deep
To find you crawling in my skin;
And swimming through my body’s solutions;

A face of interest;
But split at the knee;
I see you here
A coach of infest
Desolation I crawl;
For one way;
To reach a crutch;
With unnecessary relief, I fall

Bitter turmoil
Hardships clasp
Final destinies show in your eyes
They shine like foil
Unforgettable feelings;
Floating in a wave pool
But then, if not too soon;
Sink…

I sit alone now
But just hits like a brick wall
A fist lurches my stomach
The smell of fear is foul
Where will this go?
Will it come to an end?
To see you walk away;
Or will your care show

Panic arises
My heart pounds erratically
My chest screams in anguish
A handful of surprises;
Will you stay?
Or will you go?
I can promise you this
I will never again stray

My body bleeds
I fall into my puddle
Drinking my way out
The way I feed
The wreck below;
Under construction;
Waiting for me
For now, my body stays below zero

My body’s river;
Frozen under my skin
Frozen droplets
Which never stir
When will this end?
About the time I come out
Though hiding isn’t secret
My life will you defend

This is the world I live in
Destroyed and bloody;
A hole of oblivion;
And non-stops in;
This is my life of confusion
Take it or leave it
My emotional earthquake;
Not much fun.

But here I am
In front of your eyes
There you stand
I take your rough hands.
I’ve been so cold
A heart of ice
For we will both
Act just as bold.

You take me
Even with scars
The depths of my soul
I’m afraid you’ll see.
I’ve cut and bled
I’ve screamed in vain
You take me for who I am
You’ve shared my bed.

Yet I still feel lonely
I’m being held back
From chains on my limbs
My past is haunting me.
I’ve been beaten
I was sexually abused
My heart has been torn
Lonely I’ve been.

(Sorry that it’s so long, I just couldn’t stop writing. I hope that you enjoy it.)

Never judge-your not an expert

Be kind to others, they will do the same

love-for hate kills your soul

smile-frowns rot your spirit

Give-you’ll get back ten fold

Speak or you’ll never be heard

Listen-or you’ll never be trusted

Look at the moon it will look back

Smile at elders-you’ll learn something

Ask questions-information will be given

Give yourself a compliment-you’ll feel good

Share and you’ll be respected

Test your knowledge

Write a bad story (Poem)

Watch a movie with your eyes closed

Listen to your heart, give it leadership

(It’s still in construction, but these are the rules I try to live by everyday. The give yourself a compliment one is hard to do though.)